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I'm depressed.
Hey, I'd like you people who read that to tell me if you really are a bad person for still feeling bad years after some people did something wrong or bad to you, and having panic attacks and not being able to study due to it?
I really try hard not having these, but sometimes during stress it's impossible.
People keep telling others just not to talk about bad stuffs that happened as "everybody has problems, you just need to keep it out of human interactions", but the thing is: if you just shut the fuck up, it can also happens to other people, plus it's hard keeping all to oneself.
Well, that's it, if something bad has happened to you and you feel the need to talk/vent about it, you can do so in the comments!
I won't judge. Even if you tell me reading this was the bad thing that happened to you

Recently, I read the manhua The One by Nicky Lee, I advice you to read it for its fashion world's references and character's psychology